Tuesday, May 27, 2003
So much stuff is going on that isn't good that even the little bit of good that goes on is so nice. I'm excited to paint my room and go shopping on friday. I should be terrified of the work.
And I'm anxious about driving the mustang this weekend. I should be looking forward to it. I'm sort of scared. urg.
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10:53 AM
I had to put my cat to sleep friday. They had me watch. She was purring and then she wasn't. She started bleeding from every orifice. It wasn't cool.
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10:23 AM
Thursday, May 22, 2003
I got accepted into Bay Arenac Career Centers. Definately a good thing. Saves me paying for a few credit hours when I go to college. Cyclothemia starting to poke through. My worst fear is that it will become like my mothers. And I won't be able to admit that I have it. I had a dream that everytime she sadi something I punched her in the face. Eventually I hit her so hard she died. I woke up happy. I knew I didn't like her but I didn't know it went that far. Oh well. Anyways I'm off too much homework to do. I NEED A JOB.
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2:23 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Thumb Tacks and Safety Pins
Before I moved into the foster home I never even considered cutting myself. I could never understand the self control needed to do that to yourself. Somehow though last night I didn't even realise really what I was doing when I went looking for my knife. When I didnt find it I just picked up a safety pin and a thumb tack and started scratching my arm. After a while though the welts that the thumb tack was leaving behind weren't enough. I wanted to draw blood. So I picked up the safety pin and started scratching away. Left behind was about an inch of broken flesh, slowly dripping blood down my arm. But it still wasn't enough. So I pierced it.
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11:28 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
I sit around alone a lot now.
It seems like I'm slowly being abandoned.
Why doesnt he just come back to me.
And why wont my friends just come home.
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2:44 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
So I didn't see him. Disappointed but I'll live.
Now I'm looking up tabs. I'm teaching myself the guitar. Anybody have any tips or suggested tabs? I have a shit ass old acoustic for the time being, fortunately I'll be getting an electric in at least decent condition soon.
I'll probably be moving into my father house in a month or so when school is over. Get myself off probation. Always good for the social life. I've spent one too many nights in the Aerostar because I can't get caught doing 'evil' things. But now the Aerostar is sold and I must have a place to go every night. Another Era in the life of Dianne is coming to an end.
I keep getting compliments today; "Your sooo cute today!!!!" like I'm not any other? hehe, actually I usually wear comfy pants and a t shit, a rather stark contrast to my skirt and prep ass shit. I dunno so long as I'm not getting yelled at I'm cool.
I got a detention type thing today. For being in the parking lot and letting the people I was hanging out with smell like smoke. Makes me wanna murder. Oh well.
I don't have anything interesting to say so I'll be off.
Ah yes I'm writing an essay style paper on why I can't let go of jake, and why he wont leave me alone. should be fun! actually I think it'll tear me apart but you know.
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12:59 PM
Friday, May 09, 2003
JAKES BACK!!!!! Hes going to iraq (again?) may 22. But he wants to see me this weekend. I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!
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12:46 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
If I'm so wonderful then why am I so misunderstood.... Everybody has a reason for it except me....
MSI
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12:57 PM
