Thursday, October 31, 2002
So I’m getting worried. And scared. And it sucks. More tomarrow, really.
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8:12 PM
Monday, October 28, 2002
I am so sick of being alone
when are you coming home
Just a glimpse of your face
I can remember smelling your hair
I'll meet you anywhere
somewhere where no one will recognise our face
somewhere where no one can trace
Simple plan is great too.
I'm thinking a ton about Jake again. I don't know why and it wont stop. But the funny thing is; I dont feel anything for him. Hes just constantly there. I want it to stop.
Hard to say how I feel about who right now. I hate being a teenager. I guess I'm just thankful I dont go from guy to guy like every other chick I know (teenage chick I mean). Its still hard though. god when does it end.
I was thinking of you today
my head cradled in my arms
trying in vain to protect myself from the cold hardness of all that was around me
I still couldnt get the strength to pick up my head
weighing heavy on my mind
so much past, and still no future
I can still remember how terrified you were when she died
and you were left all alone
no longer could you share your birthday
and those few treasured moments I knew you had
and I still sigh and think how I was first
and how much that seemed to mean
but its over now
maybe you'll realise that this new girl isnt the same one you ran to first
and shared yourself with
all the pain and grief
and now I mean nothing to you
and I hope if you do
you get as confused as I am
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7:56 PM
Saturday, October 26, 2002
tell me truly what were doing
all I know is I can deal with this anymore
does it make difference right now
cause your so far away and I called you every day
cause your so far away
and theres nothing for me to say
acuse your so far away
can't take another day
could you please tell me what we've been doing
cause I dont know
could please tell me what you do
cause I'm so alone
I love the riddlin kids
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7:21 AM
Tuesday, October 22, 2002
take the nyu type quiz.
and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.
take the "what's my fault" quiz.
(and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.)
take the "what's my fault" quiz.
(and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.)
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
take the antisocial test.
and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.
because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "you enjoy sitcoms, popcorn, horses, and perhaps surfboarding. you lost your virginity either very early (under the age of eleven) or very late (over the age of thirty). you take politics and religion very seriously, and when you were a kid, you had a penchant for getting lost in shopping malls and/or amusement parks. your favorite color is most likely blue or green, and you are terrified of spiders."
whatever will laura tell you??
what's your battle cry? |
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take the cher test.
and go to mewing.net. because laura isn't cher.
take the nerd test.
and go to mewing.net. a nerd utopia.
Di-Havana Fales link 12:19 PM
Thursday, October 17, 2002
take the taboo quiz.
and go to mewing.net. nothing is taboo there.
take the nerd test.
and go to mewing.net. a nerd utopia.
take the HIV test.
and go to mewing.net. HEEEEEEEE.
take the jeans quiz. gus made it!
and go to mewing.net. because laura and gus collectively own over 30 pairs of jeans.
take the butt quiz.
and go to mewing.net. why not visit the site of someone who made a quiz about butts?
take the non-offensive quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
Di-Havana Fales link 11:22 AM
Briannas coming home tonight! Oh I'm so excite. Brianna is Dan's three year old daughter. I get to dress her up as a princess for halloween! Oh I'm so very excited. she'll be here at 10. Dan had to drive down to ohio at 8 this morning to go get her. :-D
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9:35 AM
Wednesday, October 09, 2002
I'm so mad
I fell asleep in Dan's rom at hm, 11:45. So Scottie comes home at 12 or so and Dan comes and wakes me up so they can all go to bed or watever. So I'ma l ready to fall asleep again I stumble out int the living room ready to pass out and what have they decided to do? Those fucks stayed up and talked for an hour telling me that its a damn shame if I have a hard time sleeping. So their talking pretty loud and when I said something at 12:30 their both like well you play music in the mornings and sometimes when we're trying to sleep. Fair enough, but could they at least turn the lights out? So Scott turns one off. One. and they continue talking. Now they've gone to bed. Its one o'clock.
and I'm pissed. I can't sleep. They got me fully awake. Once that happens I can't sleep any more. And I basically want to die.I'm going to email dan and ask him to send me mitchells phone number or something or at least tell him to please please please come pick me up at lunch. So I can come home and get some fucking sleep. I won't make it through the whole day. I just won't.
They were playing country music earlier too. So I still have a headache. I've taken way too many vioxx, ibuprofen, and damn near anything we have in the house and t just wont fucking go away.
I think I might cry.
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10:08 PM
Friday, October 04, 2002
I'm starting to think other people.
my friends my family my everything.
their all a figment of my imagination.
and why am I really here anyways.
I think maybe.
its all just a fuck up.
this dream world is the fluke of whatever there is
some strange drugs that stuck "god" into a coma
and forced us to come here
Why can I think
I really shouldnt be able to
we not but flesh
and our brains to nothing but transmit signals
telling us when were in pain
and feel good
So how come rational thought can come out of that
Why can I hear my own voice in my head
where is what I'm writing coming from
why are my eyes blue
well they arent
but nobody else knows that
ok so we're obviously not here to learn about each other
because nobody does
can't learn from each others mistakes
and the greatest scientists can't figure out how to cure a common cold
so we're not here to have fun
can't when your nose is stuffy and your sneezing constantly
walking around coughing at each other
what freak accident
or prank
put us here
But we all know theres nothing out there
somewhere
theres a whole lot of nothing in that somewhere
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1:07 PM
Thursday, October 03, 2002
I hope today marks the end of my shitty week. I really do.
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10:44 AM
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
Ben, Ben Ben! Damned if I really remember writing that, much less is that truly what I believe, but I would love love love to know what men really want. If it ever comes into your head to write it down again, post away!
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10:15 AM
