Saturday, July 27, 2002
Well I'm alone again and my skin still smells of you
listening to the music that just doesnt seem to play the same tune
it'll linger for days
residue from our hours of fun
the only reason I cannot forget
and once it fades it wont be long
until we renew the memories
its hard to believe I ever thought we could have more
more than memories
curiosity as to what could have been
hardly clouds my mind anymore
its getting too easy to say goodbye
it'd be too simple to just walk away
after a few years its like we're married
but without the emotions
or the paper that says we can't just walk away
so sometimes I get scared
and I think what if he walks away
and then I remember that I'm more likely to walk away than him
I guess I'm just a heartless bitch
or maybe I've just got more going for me
there is this guy
who would be worth leaving this all behind for
I think
but because I'm not sure
and I've seen it too often before
here I stay
with my skin smelling of cologne
and something nagging at the back of my mind
and it wont let go
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6:00 AM
but maybe I won't have to ignore it for long
dont make me
but dont break me
just let me do this all alone
and dont give me a heart to break
I've got enough on my plate
I dont want any of yours
yet
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5:58 AM
Thursday, July 25, 2002
Well I did have pictures linked but one by one the server wuoldnt let me link to em, so their on http://diannefalkin.freeservers.com in the photos section.
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6:39 PM
Wednesday, July 24, 2002
brushin
just brushin
brushin every day
keeps the dentist at bay
haha!
flossin
just flossin
just gotta keep tossin
all that floss away
to keep that silly dentist at bay
gargling
just gargling
just keep usin that mouthwash
its not hogwash
gross though it may
it will keep that crazy dentist away
unless you have braces.
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2:34 AM
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
I'm housesitting/catsitting for the Falardeu's down the street. I don't remember what one of the cats names is, so now every time I go to let them out I can only find the one, its a good thing I can leave the attic window open. Plus the cat used to be wild so it doesn't like people generally anyways, esp males. Anyways, thats my little problem, he he. Have to rememebr to call my brother and ask.
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12:07 AM
Monday, July 22, 2002
I'm so mad. Boys lie, and ignore what I say, and it pisses me off like none other.
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2:27 AM
Sunday, July 21, 2002
Good advice Johnny. Unfortunately that never gets me anywhere. :-) Because see, if I did that now I'd drop a perfectly good lover to go after a guy I hardly know.
And then murphys law the guy I hardly know has a girlfriend, and I'm proper fucked.
Whos gonna pick me up now that your gone
you left me standing here for so long
When I walk away will you follow
or stick to your resolve
Will I have to run to get away
Or will you just sit and stay
you know just what I'll do
so you really think you'll win
but you dont know whats grown inside
a hatred that saved my life
but we'll see just what you do
when you see me with someone new
and I walk straight by without a second glance
would you love me then?
I hope not
I'm not coming back
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3:42 AM
Friday, July 19, 2002
What Was Your PastLife?
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3:47 PM
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
Theres something in you
it gets to me
and I want to hold you
you get to me
eyes that peirce the darkness with rays of hope
hands that lift me above the clouds
a smile that makes me feel worthwhile
so what is it
thats so deep inside you
why can't you share it
it gets to me
dont want me to want you
it hurts too bad
just let me hold you
when you get to me again
when I wake up in the night
I think I can feel your hand resting on my side
but then I roll over and your not there
your memory clouds my dreams
day and night
and it gets to me
Jenn thinks I'm weird
doesnt understand
I want to have this
but I'm scared to ask
I asked you last night
you touched my face and started to cry
and I woke up feeling your breath on my neck
but when I rolled over there was no one for me to hold
you got to me again
but tonight when I fall asleep
I drift away in the knowledge that I'll get to soon
so now you can't get to me
and I know I should care
but you can't get to me
don't want me
you can't get to me
and when I see you friday
baby it won't bother me at all when you drive away
my own personal soldier boy
love me if you will
but baby you still cant get to me
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12:03 AM
Monday, July 15, 2002
I'll post something interesting soon, I promise.
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7:12 PM
So I saw my first great lake. Showered in Van Etton lake. And discovered "Dip-shit swimmin' time;" just call me Agent D. Now I'm back here at my mothers house, cuddling with my dog and cat, talkin to Jake like no time has passed, and enjoying the luxuries of running water and computers (which I won't have for too much longer). Jake doesn't have to leave any more. I'm so very excited about that. Saw my brother, he had my dog. Have to remember to talk to him about getting my cell phone.
Laying in that tent surrounded by five people I just met last night, and one that I went to school with my mind couldnt help but get creative. I think I scared a few people with my rambling.
I'm going to cut my hair off.
Its 28" long.
Every time I go swimming it gets turned into a rats nest, an its impossible to deal with. Not to mention its dry. I figure if I cut it off and take better care of it it'll end up looking better.
I also think I'm going to get color contacts. Green probably, possibly blue.
I also need to lose about 2% body fat. Only because I need to gain weight (in muscle) and therefore I'd lose fat because thats what happens with me. Oh well.
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7:12 PM
Sunday, July 14, 2002
I'm Rogue
What X-Men Character are You?
my rug burns gave me scars lol.
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8:36 PM
